Dream Analysis

Dreams – they are funny things!  I dream a lot and my dreams are usually very vivid and memorable.  I wake up and it doesn’t take much to remember the dreams I had while I was asleep.  The really detailed ones give me some good stories to write about and talk about!  Just click on the “Dreams” category and browse through just a few of the ones I decided to share.

I give a lot of thought to my dreams and try to figure out what in the world triggered them — what was it that must have been on my mind when I fell asleep that translated in my subconscious into the details of the dream?  I usually have no clue — the basis of most dreams remain a mystery and add to the bazaar nature of them.

But — I think I totally understand the one I had this morning just before I woke up!  It makes perfect sense to me!

The Dream:

It was a quick dream without a lot of intricate details.  The first part was that two of my fellow bloggers (Kelly and Melissa) came over to my house for tea.  We sat around my kitchen table and Kelly and Melissa both talked and talked and talked.  Every time I tried to join the conversation or start a new one, they just talked over me like I wasn’t there.  I couldn’t get a word in edgewise!  Then, I went to a class at what looked like a high school classroom.  Just as I walked into the door, I tripped and dropped my camera.  It hit the floor so hard that it shattered into a million little bitty pieces.  I got down on my hands and knees trying to collect all the pieces – most of which were the size of grains of rice and there were several handfuls of little screws like the ones on the bow of eye glasses.  I kept saying how I had to get all the pieces so I could put it back together because I didn’t want to buy a new one!
 
My Analysis:
  • Why Kelly and Melissa?  I have read both of their blogs for as long as I’ve had a blog and started following other local bloggers.  We are all very active bloggers.  Since I am on WordPress and they aren’t, they don’t show up on my Blog Surfer – I have to make a deliberate effort go to the links I put in my favorites to catch up with them.  I usually click those links a few times a week and find a lot I need to catch up on.  Lately, I have been checking every day and was just thinking the other day about how I don’t post as often as I used to, but both Kelly and Melissa seem to always have something new to read!  SO — that is probably my interpretation that they “talk” more than I do – even though I try to “talk” a lot!
  • Why did they come for tea?  I think that was prompted by my seeing “Alice in Wonderland” this past weekend.  I enjoyed the tea party scenes and even mentioned in my review that my love of the story as a child is probably why I still adore tea parties!  Tea parties were on my mind, so one ended up in my dream!
  • So, what’s the deal with my camera?  For some reason lately, I have thought a lot about getting a new camera.  Not sure why – my camera is fairly new, works great, and takes really nice pictures!  But, I find myself looking at cameras in stores and thinking about what kind I might like to upgrade to.  Every time I do, I tell myself that I don’t need a new one – the one I have is fine – it isn’t broke!  Last evening, I was talking to Mom to finalize plans for a trip we’re going on in a few months and we talked about not forgetting our cameras.  As we talked, I had a fleeting thought in the back of my head about getting a new one and, again, reminded myself that the one I have isn’t broken – I do not need to buy a new one!!!  So — in my dream I broke it so I could get a new one, but my subconscious made me try to fix it so I wouldn’t have to!!
  • Why a high school classroom?  Not sure about this one — unless it is because of all the stories in the Herald lately about dress codes, Saturday make up for snow days, and drop out rates!!??  Sounds good…..

So – a dream that made sense after I broke it down!  That’s different!  Sweet dreams…..

My Take on the Oscars

Tonight the coveted Academy Awards were presented to those who have excelled in their respective categories for film making.  The most glitzy and emotionally charged night of the year for Hollywood and those of us who love movies!  I love watching the Oscars being handed out — the clothes, the acceptance speeches, the embarrassing moments….I look forward to it every year!

Alas, I can not give an opinion on all of the winners because I didn’t actually see most of the movies that were nominated!  Seriously, right?  Me – the one who spends more time in the movie theater than anywhere else I go?  I missed most of the movies that were nominated?  To be honest, it has been that way for the past few years — I have not had a big interest in the ones that end up being nominated and the ones I thought were worth my praise just weren’t artsy enough to get a nod from the Academy or were snubbed for whatever reason! 

The movies I did see that were nominated did do well, though (click the links for each to read my reviews for each of the films):

  • UP! won for Best Animated Feature Film — I loved UP!  It was an amazing film – by far the best animated film ever made, in my opinion!  I am thrilled that it won in not only this category, but also in the Best Original Score.
  • Jeff Bridges won Best Actor for his role as Bad Blake in Crazy Heart!  I have always loved Jeff Bridges, but this role was his best yet – absolutely deserving of an Oscar!  I adored the film as a whole, as well, so was also happy to see that it also won for Best Original Song for “The Weary Kind” – a lovely song!
  • Sandra Bullock won Best Actress for her role as Leigh Ann Tuohy in The Blind Side.  Sandra is the queen of the romantic comedy – great roles, fun movies, but generally not Oscar worthy!  She took on this role and played it to the hilt!  She did a phenomenal job and is now not only America’s Sweetheart, she is America’s Oscar Winning Sweetheart!  You go girl — the girl next door can make it to the big leagues, after all!

That’s all I can offer as far as opinions on the awards!  Other nominees from films I actually saw that didn’t win anything were:

  • Stanley Tucci in his brilliant portrayal of the villain in The Lovely Bones (nominated for Best Supporting Actor)
  • Meryl Streep in her portrayal of Julia Child in Julie and Julia (nominated for Best Actress) – loved her part, but wasn’t too crazy about the rest of the movie
  • Sherlock Holmes – nominated for Best Original Score and Best Art Direction – hated the movie, but both these categories were appropriate nominations for it

So, on to what I thought of what everyone was wearing:

  • What I DID NOT like:
    • Miley Cyrus — the bottom was OK, but she looked like she forgot to put on the top part!  Totally not age appropriate!
    • Sarah Jessica Parker — sorry, but I have never agreed that she is some kind of a fashion icon!  Tonight was no exception — she looked like she realized at the last-minute that she forgot to get a dress and just wrapped a sheet around herself and then attached one of those floral swag things you find over mirrors to the bodice!  And her hair was a MESS!
    • Charlize Theron — it was a lovely dress and molded her body beautifully — but they ruined it by putting two big flowers or circle things on each boob!
    • Vera Farniga — looked like she took a spool of ready-made ruffle trimming fabric and just wrapped herself in it!
    • Zoe Saldena — a mess of purple fluff and poof!
    • Barbara Streisand — a dowdy black dress with a lace table cloth wrapped around her neck!
    • Diane Kruger — looked like someone took a bunch of scraps and stuck them all together!
    • Tina Fey — looked like she just stepped out of a Tarzan movie!
    • Mariah Carey — typical Mariah Carey – too tight, too small, and not enough of it in any of the necessary places!
    • Sigourney Weaver — ill-fitting — looked like she grabbed it off the rack, but didn’t have time to go to a good tailor to have it taken in – she was drowning in it! 
  • What I DID like: 
    • Jennifer Lopez took the top prize for best gown in my opinion!  It was absolutely beautiful and fit her body perfectly!
    • Helen Mirren looked elegant, as always!
    • Sandra Bullock’s dress was gorgeous, but I was not totally crazy about the top part!
    • Penelope Cruz was stunning, as usual!
    • Rachel McAdams – I really liked her colorful, flowing, cloud looking dress – very pretty!
    • Elizabeth Banks, Demi Moore, and Cameron Diaz all looked amazing, as well…..

So — it’s all over for another year!  See you at the movies!

Movie Review – Brooklyn’s Finest

Richard Gere…Don Cheadle…Ethan Hawke…Wesley Snipes – WOW – with a cast like that, it has to be one for the record books…right???  How can it not be great???  Put them all together in a good cop story and you’ve got a winner!  I hadn’t seen any of the previews for this film, but when I saw it listed this weekend, I was immediately drawn to it.  I like a good cop drama, but it was the cast that captured me and made me head out on a beautiful Sunday afternoon to take in a movie!

And the cast didn’t disappoint……all were true to form and perfectly cast in their roles.  Gere as the cop waiting out his last 7 days before retiring from a lackluster career;  Cheadle as an undercover detective infiltrating a drug gang;  Hawke as a narcotics detective struggling with ethics and needing more money to care for his growing family;  and Snipes as the head of the drug gang.  I was also very excited to see Vincent D’Onofrio in the opening scene – I didn’t realize he was in the film!  I love him on Law and Order, Criminal Intent and in other roles I have seen him in – such a quirky character!  But — he was in all of two minutes (if that) of the opening scene before his face was blown off!  It goes without saying that I didn’t see any more of him…..

So, the cast was great, the acting suburb…….that ends the things I can say were special about the movie!  Don’t get me wrong – it was good!!!  Action, drama, complex story line……a very good movie!  But, unfortunately, nothing really special!  It was a lot of “same ole, same ole”!  Just another dirty cop, good cop, indifferent cop, drug dealer, gang, shoot ’em up movie.  It was exciting at times, boring at times, and had an odd ending……all the main characters had their own story lines (except Cheadle and Snipes, who shared a story line), but they didn’t cross paths until the end when they all came together in an odd coincidental circumstance.  The ending was definitely the best part, but still a little de ja vu……

So — I did like it, I just would have been just as happy to wait and see it on NetFlix!  I rate it a B- …….good, but a little too ordinary.

Megan, Megan, Megan….

I often get comments about how Megan must be my “favorite” because I am always talking about her more than the other two.  That’s not true — well, it is true that I do tend to talk about her more, but it isn’t true that she is favored over the other two!  It’s sorta like when you have more than one child – you don’t love one more than the others and you don’t put one above the others….but, you do tend to consider them the focus in certain situations because they usually have different interests, different personalities, and different things they are good at! 

My girls are like that — each tug at my heart in different ways for different reasons. 

Katie – the beautiful one and the social butterfly!  She is the one that always comes to mind first when a trip potential comes up or a visit with a friend with dogs or an event where other dogs will be there.  She loves all other dogs and they all love her!  She is best in those situations and is happy and comfortable in them.  She is gentle, settled, and very loving.  I was talked into rescuing her because Puddles was in the last years of her life and friends were worried that her death would put me over the deep end and having another dog already established might help.  Quite the contrary — she ended up being more of a benefit to Puddles than for me.  She and Puddles were quickly best friends and adored each other.  I was amazed at the new life Katie brought to Puddles’ life!  They were inseparable!  When it came time for Puddles to leave us, though, my friends were right — she didn’t keep me from going off the deep end, but it was a comfort having her here!  We actually mourned together – she was just as lost without her as I was!  And I will always adore her and consider her special for that! 

Amy – the shy, quiet one!  If I want to just cuddle and hold onto one of the girls tight, it is Amy that fits the bill.  She loves to be held close – in fact, she can’t get close enough!  She leans into any hug or when I put my arm around her and scootches in like she’s trying to get inside you!  The other two like to be hugged and snuggled, but not for long — Amy will stay all wrapped up with me for hours, if I would just stay and not move – I’m always the first to break the hold!  Her and Katie are best buddies and are always either curled up or playing together.  When she was found with Megan as wild puppies, she was the one who took to human touch and affection the quickest.  She is gentle and sweet. 

Megan – the precocious one!   I can understand why people think I only talk about her — she gives me the most to talk about!!!  She has the biggest personality and is the most curious and adventurous!  She is into EVERYTHING – cunning, sneaky, and very imaginative!  Everything she sees ends up in her mouth!  She has eaten me out of house and home – literally – up until about a year ago, I was replacing furniture, rugs, pillows, sheets, blankets, comforters, cushions, etc…..over and over again!  I was beginning to think I would never have anything nice in my house again!  She has outgrown eating furniture and accessories, but still gets into things she shouldn’t and is amazingly good at finding and getting at stuff in the darndest places.  All this results in her being terribly accident prone – she is always getting into stuff that gets her hurt!  Luckily, most of the time it doesn’t involve the need for vet care – but, unluckily, often it DOES!  I worry a lot about her eating something that is going to cause a major problem – hurt her really bad and cost me a lot of money to fix her up!!!  She is very protective of me and devoted – not that the other’s aren’t, but it is so much more so with her!  I have to be more careful of her in social situations — she loves people, but other dogs that come near me put her on alert and I need to be on alert to control the situation.  She does really well at Rae-Zor with other dogs – plays and gets along just fine, but I’m not there for her to need to protect me.  She also gets really scared and clingy when out of her comfort zone.  She was the one that needed more attention to get her to trust me and people in general — once she realized people were good, she was fine and loves all people, but it took a lot of work!  I’m sure that’s why she is more protective and devoted than the others — she was more dependant on me when she first came here and I worked more with her.

Case in point about her getting into things — I keep thinking I have “Megan proofed” the house, but she continues to surprise me!  She has eaten some of the strangest things!  A few days ago, I noticed she was acting a little strange with her mouth – rubbing the side of her face with her paw, licking the roof of her mouth, and no “lick” type kisses, like usual (she just butted her nose and closed mouth against my cheek in quasi kisses).  She was eating, drinking, doing her duty, and acting normally, otherwise.  I tried to see if there was something wrong with her mouth, but all looked fine from the outside and the inside was fine from what I could see – she wouldn’t let me do a thorough look!  I didn’t push it because her behavior was a little different, but not alarming!  Then — Friday night, I found a chewed up AA battery when I was vacuuming and the light came on in my head!  I panicked and left a message at All Animals, hoping someone would return my call and tell me what to do!  I tried to think exactly when I first noticed her different behavior and realized it was probably 2-3 days before I discovered what was wrong!  I forced her mouth open and saw that the side of her tongue and the inside of her cheek was all red and swollen!  I was sick to my stomach that I didn’t know something was so wrong!  I went to bed and dreamed that I got a return call from Dr. Cindy in the middle of the night to bring her in for emergency surgery – they had to remove half of her tongue and a big piece of her cheek to get rid of the burned, dead tissue!  I woke up in tears and all shaky — I grabbed her up out of a sound sleep and hugged and rocked her with tears pouring down my face!  She wasn’t sure what in the world was going on, but was too sleepy to fight me!  😉  Dr. Cindy called the next morning and said she just needed some antibiotics and anti-inflammatory meds and she should be fine — after a day and a half on the meds, she does seem much better – she’s acting more normally and the redness is not as pronounced!  But — all I keep thinking about is, what if she had done like she usually does?  What if she broke that battery open and actually ate it????  How much damage would the corrosive interior of the battery have done to her throat, stomach, intestines?  I still haven’t figured out where she got the battery — no remnants of a box was found and no signs that she got it from the trash.  She is fine – this time – again!

But, yeah — she does hold a special place in my heart — she needs and gets more attention in ways that the others don’t.  They all get their fair share of attention and love and all have their own special place in my heart — but Megan just stands out more!  And, she has more funny and tragic stories to be told!

Megan — sometimes the Muffin Head — sometimes the Monster Girl — but always “something” to talk about!!!

Movie Review – Alice in Wonderland

Some adults analyze and look back on many of the classic children’s stories and begin to wonder what the writers were thinking…..did they really think it was appropriate to entice children with stories about child-devouring witches (and various other evil witches), wicked step mothers, hungry wolves, evil trolls, poison or hallucenogenically drugged foods, flying monkeys, and – in the case of the subject of this post – blood queens who order the beheading of everyone she dislikes!  Grace Slick wrote “White Rabbit”, a song that compared “Alice in Wonderland” to the use of psychedelic drugs in the ’60s.  Looking at it from that angle, who would want to encourage children to eat or drink unknown substances at the encouragement of unknown persons with the promise of making them smaller or larger than real life?  Children should be terrified of these stories!  But, instead are enchanted by them.  One would think that repeated reading of such stories would scar a child’s mental state, but they come through them not only unscathed, but with richer imaginations and sense of adventure because of them!  The critique of classic children’s stories are generally shrugged off with the thought that they are just stories – fantasies.  Children are not stupid – they can sort through them to find the moral of the story and learn from them and parents can utilize other means to protect their children from the evils of the world without denying them the exposure to ageless, classic stories.  There are far worse things they can read and watch than childhood fantasies.

With a few exceptions, that childhood enchantment with these stories  continues into adulthood.  I know it has with me – which is why I was so excited to see this movie as soon as it opened!  I loved this story as a child and wonder if it was the reason I had a love for hats in my early adulthood and still adore tea parties!  All the characters in Wonderland are so vivid and colorful – I think much more so than most other stories.  I just loved it and it was a particular thrill to know that Johnny Depp was cast to play the Mad Hatter!  What a treat!

I was concerned, though, that Tim Burton may have gone towards the dark side and make it more macabre than magical.  But, I was happy to discover that he didn’t go there – at least not totally.  He stayed true to the fantasy while adapting it to an older Alice.  I had heard that the film was shot in 2D and the 3D aspects were added later – that true 3D enthusiasts will be disappointed in the way it looks.  Luckily, the only 3D movie I’ve ever been to was a nature film at the Imax where I felt like I was right in the ocean with the fish we were watching.  So, I didn’t have much to compare it to.  I thought it was well done and flinched at things that were thrown at me!  haha  I was a little disappointed, though, that it was only certain scenes that were 3D – I would have liked to see more of it throughout!  But, what they did was effective!

I found the approach of telling the story a little differently very refreshing.  Alice is now 19 and, after years of what she thought was just a recurring dream, finds herself following a white rabbit into a rabbit hole, yet again.  She arrives and goes through similar experiences and meets all the same characters as she did when she was a little girl – but has no memory of ever being there before.  The characters debate whether they lured the “right” Alice back to help them save the day by slaying the Jabberwocky.  She continues to think she’s just having a dream and takes charge of the way it goes.

True to form, Johnny Depp was the perfect Mad Hatter.  In my opinion, Depp is one of the greatest character actors of our time.  He molds himself and becomes whatever role he takes on.  I continue to be amazed at his abilities and what he brings to each film he is a part of.  This is no exception.  His expressions and muttled way he talks brought life to the Mad Hatter like no one else could.

Helena Bonham Carter was incredible as the big-headed Red Queen.  She went from one moment of glancing alluringly to Stayne-Knave of Hearts (portrayed by Crispin Glover) to jolt into her constant demand of “off with their heads”!  All in a blink of an overly expressive eye!  Since all you see of her is her enormous head (her body is an animation), it is her eyes and the way she said her lines that bring life to her character — and she is brilliant at ensuring you know at all times exactly what she is thinking!

Other fun standouts for me were Tweedledee/Tweedledum, the Cheshire Cat, the Blue Caterpillar, and the Dormouse – all had delightful scenes and interacted beautifully with the other characters.  I was enchanted by them.

I also heard negative criticism about the action scene towards the end with the Jabberwocky.  The thoughts I read from some was that it was not necessary and a cheap shot at adding an action/adventure aspect.  Phooey!  I thought it was absolutely appropriate to the story and gave it a climax that pulled everything that lead up to it together.  I don’t understand the criticism.

The only thing that left me thinking it should have been different was the ending…….I won’t go into details and spoil it, but…….the ending was very good and fit the older Alice perfectly.  But, I just wish that Johnny Depp would have made an appearance in the very final scene implying a continued connection…….just the hopeless romantic in me speaking!

I was memorized by it and am so happy I went to see it on the big screen in 3D!  It was well worth the extra price for 3D and a perfect way to spend a Saturday afternoon.  I may go see it again!  I rate this one an A- and encourage anyone who is still intrigued by the children’s classics they grew up with to go see it and become enchanted all over again.

Follow Ups, Updates, Etc…

Lots of stuff has been going on in my life, lately.  Lots of thoughts are bumping around in my head.  Lots of things I find that I have an opinion on.  So, here I am thinking I should probably find a way to get them out of my head and make room for some new stuff….aaahhh – the therapeutic nature of the blog, or should it be called a “brain dump receptacle”?

First — the most recent update is that WINTER is STILL attacking Sanford, NC!  We typically get one sign of snow a year – sometimes barely noticable, sometimes quite problematic, always a source of great excitement for the area.  We usually get more ice and winter mixes than actual snow.  This year – the first since I moved here in 1985 – we had three major snow events and a couple more minor showings.  If I kept count accurately, there were five instances of snow in some capacity since January, 2010!  So – January, February, and March all had a major snow event.  March?  Seriously?  This is the time of year I’m usually tormenting my northern friends with emails about how spring is starting to show up!  Here are some pictures depicting the 2010 winter season in Sanford, so far…. This is the same shot taken of all three snow days.  The first was in January – we got a heavy mix of snow and ice – my driveway was a thick sheet of ice!  The middle was in February – it came down light and fluffy, didn’t stick on the pavement, and was gone by mid-day!  The last was March – today, in fact – it is very wet and heavy and completely covered everything, but is already melting away!  I didn’t get as much as parts of the county west of me, though! 

  

Next is a follow-up to last week’s post about being stressed about some upcoming outpatient surgery I was scheduled for this week.  It happened yesterday and I am not really sure why I was so stressed out!  It was really a piece of cake.  I wasn’t totally unscathed, but it was definitely not worth all the worry I invested into it.  I have to say I had a very good experience at Central Carolina Hospital — the nurses were so nice and helpful, the anesthesiologist was also very nice, informative, and caring!  As promised by the anesthesiologist, they started with a little something to relax me and by the time I got into the operating room, the last thing I remember is scootching over onto the table.  The next thing I knew, the nurses were calling my name and telling me to breathe deeply to wake me up in recovery!  I have no idea what happened in between that and, quite frankly, don’t really care!  They warned that I would likely be weak, tired, and woozy most of the day.  They also warned that I might have somewhere between mild and extensive cramping and to take pain meds to control that.  I got home, had some lunch, and went to bed.  I spent almost all day and then all night sleeping!  I got up a few times and tried to stay up, but just wasn’t up to it – very light headed and fairly lethargic.  But, the cramping never happened – I had some twinges and hints of cramping a few times late last night, but nothing else!  Ronald was there through the surgery and stayed with me all day – he was very supportive!  Lisa came over after she finished with some commitments she had during the day and was very helpful.  Today, I am up, but still somewhat light headed and after being up for about 4 hours, I think I’m ready for a nap!  The funny thing of it all is the instructions for my first 48 hours:  Do not drive a car, use power tools, ride a bicycle or climb a tree!  Hhhhmmmm – guess I’ll just have to put off my plans for today to ride a bike to the nearest big tree, climb to the top and use power tools to trim the limbs and build a tree house – then drive my car to haul off the debris!  Tomorrow, I’ll be back to work and ready for all that life has to offer!  I go back to the doc in a couple weeks to find out about the biopsy and get checked out.  I’m very optimistic!

Now — on to the announcement of the upcoming new season of Dancing with the Stars:   Come on!  Last season was fairly lackluster and blah….I hoped that would pick up this year.  Guess not — maybe this show has run its course and they are stretching at straws trying to find appropriate stars – problem is, it isn’t working!  Did they really think Kate Gosselin and Buzz Aldrin would be good choices?  And the Batchelor guy???  Really???  OK, so Aiden Turner from All My Children just might give me a reason to tune in, but we’ll see if watching him is enough to overcome having to watch the rest…….it doesn’t sound too promising!

Fundraiser updates:  February brought us two – count ’em – two very successful CARA fundraisers!!!  First Friday at Cafe 121 on Feb 5th was the most successful event since Chef Hamm started hosting these events for local non-profits.  Out take for the evening was $1000 and it was so much FUN!!!   Then, on Feb 22nd, we had our third annual Bella Dinner benefiting CARA’s Holly Fund (fund maintained to provide care for homeless animals with special health or developmental needs) held at Bella Bistro.  This, too, was a fabulous event – fun, great food – 5 course gourmet dinner with wine pairings and a champagne reception – and lots of wonderful conversations with fellow animal lovers!  Our proceeds for that event was about $3300!  So – in one month and two amazing events, we brought in over $4000!  What a great month!  The next CARA event is “Ride for Their Lives” – a biking event at Deep River Park at Camel Back Bridge on May 8th.  AND — drum roll, please — at Communities in Schools of Lee County are starting to get into the bulk of the plans for this year’s “Dancing with the Lee County Stars” event scheduled for August 13th!  It is going to be even better than the hugely popular first event last year!!

Well, that’s about it for now — I could go on, but need a nap!  hehehe

Finger Spelling With Megan

This morning, I mesmerized Megan with pretend finger spelling.  She was fascinated with it!  Here’s what we did:   We were playing “high five” and I was trying to catch her paw.  Then, I was wiggling my fingers and she laid her paw on top of them to make me stop, but I just wiggled them more at the pads of her paw to tickle her.  She perked her head and ears up and cocked her head looking at what I was doing.  So, I acted like I was finger spelling on the underside of her paw — like Annie Sullivan did to Helen Keller in “The Miracle Worker”.  I learned some finger spelling as a child and only vaguely remember bits and pieces of it, so it was mostly pretend.  BUT — Megan held her paw there for the longest time looking down at what I was doing and then up at me and back at her paw!  I said, “can you understand what I’m spelling for you?  I’m saying ‘I love you, Megan’.”  She seemed intrigued by it all and when I finally got tired and stopped, she pawed at my hand to do it again!!!!  We went through that about three times before I finally quit!

This may just seem like another funny dog story I wanted to share, but it is more than that!  Megan has come a long way in the three and a half years that I have had her!  I’ve written before about her and her sister, Amy, being found out in the country and rescued from a life in the wild.  She was extremely distrustful of humans and scared to death of being trapped or held.  After a lot of work with her in the early days, I was able to let her know that she has nothing to be afraid of and now trusts me completely and loves to be held!  BUT — she still doesn’t particularly like having her paws held – unless she’s sleepy – then she loves it when I hold and massage them!  That’s why we play “high five” and I try to catch her paws — to get her to not mind having them held or touched.  She’s gotten a lot better about it, but I view this as a huge break through!!!  AND – it was really quite funny to watch!  It really did remind me of the Helen Keller movie where she had the big break through at the water pump and kept begging for more and more words! 

Dreamin’ of Dogs….

I had a dream this morning…..about dogs…..LOTS of dogs!!!  I dreamed that I went to the back door to let the girls in from being out for their morning duties and play time.  When I opened the door, I was in shock to see the yard FULL of dogs I didn’t recognize – all digging holes and trenches, tearing up my lawn furniture cushions, pulling things out of the shed, and absolutely ruining my shrubs and landscaping!!!  Several rushed in the door when it was opened and began to wreak havoc all through my house!!!  I got them out, but more rushed in.  I looked over the masses to see if I could find Katie, Megan, and Amy to get them in and secured in a bedroom while I figured out what happened and how to get them all out of my yard, but they were not to be found.  I went out to search through the dogs and would find some that looked like them only to discover it wasn’t them when I got up close.  Then people started to come yelling at me for having their dogs trapped in my yard!  I tried to tell them that I didn’t have anything to do with it and that however they got in, mine must have gotten out!  I demanded that they get their dogs OUT OF MY YARD and asked who was going to help me fix the mess they caused!  So, the people started trying to catch their dogs and they were falling in the holes that were all over the yard.  I went in to get my leashes and got in the car to drive around looking for my girls.  There were people and cars all over my driveway and front yard (rutting up my grass, by the way), so I couldn’t get out of the garage.  I honked my horn to get them to move and no one would.  They said they weren’t leaving without their dogs and threatened to call the police to have me arrested for dog-napping!  I said I didn’t care what they did, but they had better get out of my way so I could go find MY dogs!  I said I hoped they DID call the police and save me the effort of calling them myself to press charges for all the damage they and their dogs did to my yard – front and back!  They parted so that I could get out of the garage and I drove around the block and found the girls – all huddled together laying on the front lawn of a house on the next block over.  They ran immediately to me – all shaking, scared, and hurt!  They were eager to get into the car and we went home.  By the time we got there, all the people and dogs were gone and my home looked like it had been in a war zone.  As I was standing at the bottom of the driveway looking in disbelief with tears rolling down my face, a nice couple who frequently walk past my house with their little pug dog came by.  They stood there with me and the girls looking at the torn up yard, my flowering trees all laying down, the fence crushed down and gaping open, and mud slung up on my siding and windows.  They asked what happened and I just looked at them, unable to speak. 

At that time, the girls started whining to get up, so I woke up and laid there a minute while they went nuts on me trying to figure out what in the world could have caused a dream like that!  I got up and opened the back door to let them out and breathed a sigh of relief that everything looked just like it should look!

Movie Review – Shutter Island

The previews for this movie grabbed me, but I wasn’t sure I should go see it!  First, I heard a lot of mixed reviews, but hadn’t heard from anyone who actually saw it.  Second, I don’t like horror type thrillers and from the previews I really couldn’t tell if it was going to be a suspense thriller or a horror thriller – big difference!  So, since it was getting harder and harder to resist the previews, I decided to see it, but not alone and not at night – just in case it ended up being too scary for my tastes.

Shutter Island is billed as an Action/Adventure Thriller.  Not sure I’d agree with the Action/Adventure part, but I may not know all the criteria that puts a film in that category.  But, the Thriller part is accurate.  And, no it wasn’t the horror type thriller that I don’t particularly like.  It was very suspenseful – kept me on the edge of my seat and held my interest throughout.  It was full of twists and turns and connecting the past with the present.  As anyone can see from the previews, the story starts out with Leonardo DiCaprio and Mark Ruffalo as Federal Marshalls who go to a hospital for the criminally insane to investigate the mysterious disappearance of one of the psychotic patients.  I won’t go into any more of the plot to avoid accidentally including any spoilers.  Suffice it to say, the institution, the patients, the staff, and the administrators are all obviously hiding something and it makes for a tense two hours of watching DiCaprio and Ruffalo sort through it all to find the truth.

I am not a huge Leonardo DiCaprio fan, but his performance in this film is very good!  I do like Mark Ruffalo a lot and was not disappointed in his work.  Also notable was Ben Kingsley as the head of the hospital.  All the acting was exceptional.  Martin Scorsese lived up to his reputation, as well — the direction and filming was brilliant! 

I had some inkling about half way through that left me not totally surprised at the outcome, but I didn’t suspect the details at all.  The down side was that the movie just ended…..it explained how we got there, but still left me hanging.  My friend and I just shook our heads and said, “that’s it?” 

All in all, it was really quite good — the flash backs and dream sequences were not too hard to follow, the acting and direction were excellent,  and it kept me on the edge of my seat!  The blunt ending was a big minus for me.  I rate this one a B++ and recommend it for those who like suspense and intrigue.

Just A Little Stressed Out, Here…

I guess you can say I’ve been blessed or that I must have done something right all my life….I have made it to 53 years old and never had to have any kind of surgery!  In addition to that, I’ve only had one broken bone – I fractured my collar-bone in a car accident when I was a little girl – and only have one scar from stitches I got when I was crawling on the kitchen floor as a baby and cut the palm of my hand open on a piece of glass from a broken milk bottle.  I often say that I fully intend to leave this world with everything I came into it with!

Well, to be honest, the no surgery of any kind statement is not TOTALLY true — I did have lasik eye surgery in 1999 and had oral surgery to remove four impacted wisdom teeth when I was in my early 20’s.  But, neither were done in a hospital and neither really seemed “medical” to me at the time.  I was awake and aware during the entire lasik procedure, although the valium they gave me made me not really care all that much!  The removal of the impacted wisdom teeth – all four in one session – was the closest thing to surgery I’ve ever had – I was put into a twilight sleep, it was considered major oral surgery, and I was out of work for a week all swollen, bruised and on heavy pain meds, but it was done in the dentist’s office.  So, I guess all that kinda negates my first sentence.  But, what I mean is – I never had to schedule a procedure at the hospital, never had to go under general anesthesia, and never had the meer “idea” of surgery give me reason to consider my health may be at risk! 

Until now….

Next week I have to go into the hospital for some outpatient surgery.  It is minor in nature, done all the time and has been for decades, and doesn’t involve any incisions of any kind.  When the doctor told me they need to do the procedure, I heard “outpatient” and that they will put me to sleep for a short time and I can go home!  In my totally naive and independent mind, I thought “OK, so I’ll take the day off work, drive to the hospital, have it done, stop for some lunch on the way home, and go back to work the next day.”  Simple!  It didn’t sink in that it was a little more serious than that until later! 

My first clue was when I finally connected to one word the doctor also said that, at the time, sorta went in one ear and out the other – “biopsy”!  Yeah, I know, it is just a precaution because something isn’t progressing normally and it is probably nothing!  But, they really should find a different word for it when it is probably nothing and then change what you call it if it does become something!

My next clue was when I talked to the nurse to schedule the time and she set up appointments for not only the procedure, but also for a “pre-op” session at the doctor’s office and the hospital – to tell me what to expect and do some testing – hhhmmm, you mean I don’t just show up like other simple, routine appointments??!!  She told me that I will need to have someone come with me to drive me home, possibly stay with me for a while afterwards, and that I would probably be out of work for two days.  OK – so why didn’t I think of that?  I didn’t even remotely consider that I wouldn’t just drive myself there and be on my merry way!  Heck, I even drove myself to the emergency room for all night pain management while a really bad kidney stone passed a couple of times – it took me about 45 minutes to make a 10-15 minute trip because I had to keep pulling over to throw up and try to relax the intense pain, but I got myself there – of course since the pain management included morphine, I had to call someone to come get me, but I got myself there!!!

OK, so I obviously had no idea what to expect and needed to look this procedure up to find out what it involves.  I knew I would get all the info I need at my pre-op appointment, but that is this Friday – a couple weeks from when I first heard of the need to have it!  I’m not a patient woman!  So, I googled it!  Apparently, it is typically done under general anesthesia and the recommendations include no heavy lifting and for the patient to stay off their feet as much as possible to avoid possible hemorrhaging!  That doesn’t sound good!  So, I guess I need to take this more seriously than I originally thought!  I’m probably overreacting by getting as nervous as I’m letting myself get, but I was definitely UNDER reacting when I thought I’d drive myself there and go have lunch afterwards!

What I also found out during my googling, though, was that a lot of times the situation I am in that is resulting in the need for this procedure is STRESS related!!!  I may go through all this, have a biopsy done, likely worry myself into a frenzy until the results come back, and find out what I already know —- my life needs to be seriously de-stressed!  Case in point — I am getting myself all worked up and maxing out the stress meter just thinking about what is going to happen to me next week!!!  This is on top of everything else that I stress over!  I know that my blood pressure, diabetes, and even my arthritis would be much easier to manage if I just chilled out and cut out things that cause me unnecessary stress!!! 

So, with that, I’ll end with the thought that writing about it is a big help – get it out and off my mind (for a little while)!  And I’ll also leave with the age-old question that I really don’t expect an answer to anytime soon:  If I know that cutting out the stressful things that can easily be avoided in life will greatly improve my health and happiness, why do I not do something about it????